i dont know what happened.
maybe the cooling pad i bought tonight will help. LOL. i... dont know...
theres always something off
theres always something missing
theres always something else
so do i have it all and im not content
im not content because i dont have it all
should i stop looking left and right
and start looking up and down
how can i stop.
theres something there for me. theres something that im supposed to be doing. theres something that i will absolutely love doing. i just dont know it yet.
maybe i dont know because i cant be bothered. its there right in front of me, flailing, jumping, screaming.
its like im stuck. a wind up doll that wants to go somewhere but does not want to be wound up.
i want to be left alone but i dont want to be left behind.
i know theres more.
there has to be.