i love films.
i love buying tickets to see one.
i love buying dvds to see them over and over.
my dad thinks its a waste of money. i think he's wrong.
there are a few good movies out there and i think i watched one tonight.
some may not agree. some may agree for a different reason.
but im not here to think about what others may think. im here to think about what i think.
i finally watched troy (2004) after telling myself i would after i took a classical myth class in my last year of university.
i wanted to see how closely it follows the myth.
its been so long since that class that i dont remember much anymore. i dug up my ratty textbook and i will read it again tonight.
classical myth fascinates me that much.
i dont know if there is any truth in this myth but to me, it came to life on my screen. i saw thousands of men sailing across the sea to go to war for a man full of greed. thousands of men marching towards each other leaving at the shores and the gates their wives, children, father, mother, brother, sister.
ancient warfare, mythical or not, leaves me in awe. men charge at a command, running towards their death. archers shower men with deadly rain. both man and animal fall soaking the sand, splattering the walls, dyeing the ground with their blood.
all for the glory of their nation. the nation of one man.
heroes are remembered. their names spoken aloud, carved on stone, written in books, studied, admired and even worshipped by many.
but what about the other hundreds of thousands who have fallen? who were they? what were their names? did they leave someone behind? did their death cause someone to cry?
the characters of this myth must have led very sorrowful lives. they must endure days, weeks and months of being apart. working hard, sailing away, fighting wars. unsure if they will ever be together again. hoping that they would not have to spend a lifetime apart, yearning to finally meet again in the next life. the most unfortunate watch as their loved one falls in the hands of the enemy.
i would feel bad for them. but i dont. i feel bad for us. we are not characters of a classical myth. yet there is so much sorrow and emptiness in our lives.
we have "tired" of conquering lands. we have "ended" owning people. we have evolved, grown stronger and wiser. we made ways to get tp places faster. we made ways to travel father. we made ways to spend less time together. we made ways to kill each other easier.
we made things easier and more complicated.
what is our trojan war? what is our great world war? what is our great depression?
who is that one man full of greed that we are fighting our war for now?
have we created a war that we are not even aware of? have we made ourselves our own king filled with greed?
why do we have to try so hard? what are we working so hard for? what do we have to attain that we dont already have? what are we investing our lives in? what is the rainy day we are saving up for?
isnt today enough?
isnt right here and now enough?
ive said this many times before but that will not stop me from saying it many times again,
dont look too far into the future that you miss what is right in front of you.
you are my today
and my tomorrow